Today I feel like Rosa Parks

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Ok Today I feel like Rosa Parks
I just can’t sit in the back of the bus anymore. I’ve been doing for far too long.
Maybe God let me get so ill so id stop running around looking busy pretending everything’s ok
I wonder if Rosa felt that way. Did she have doubts every day about speaking up or did one day an overwhelming burning take over her in her chest and she jumped up and said Not one day more?
Was she tired of picking herself up and being nice? Was watching others have dignity and honor while it was taken from her just too much anymore?
Did she wonder why do they get a good life but not me?
What if Rosa never spoke up?
What if I never speak up.
The enemy does not me to write this.
Too bad.
I’m obedient to my Fathers voice.
We shall arise.
He shall raise us.
Those of us alone
Revelation 12:10-11
Then I heard a loud voice in heaven, saying,
“Now the salvation, and the power, and the kingdom of our God and the authority of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brethren has been thrown down, he who accuses them before our God day and night. 11“And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even when faced with death.
I’m not afraid of death and truth is I don’t have anything but my breath to loose so I consider it all again for real not slogan.
I’m tired of being managed patronized and marginalized.
I am exhausted w being told to use too many words, im autistic get used to it. He made me that way. I’m not ashamed of who I Am in God. And please don’t give the verse a person of too many words is a fool. God didn’t write that for u to shame an autistic person verbal communication.
I’m also tired of being framed as THE problem as if it’s my fault I dared to trust my God my family government and fellow humans to care about me as a person created to be loved.
I had money. I had position. I have intellect. I am well put together. I am capable and if I cant fix this then what hope does the drug addict or the learning disabled, mentally ill, disheveled person?
It cant be all for nothing. God didn’t ask me to give my life up just to say oh well ill die someday. No I’m alive in Him today
I tell my story about how my old City Harvest Church leaders locked us out leaving us homeless for years and I’m told it’s not nice to tell people. Huh? I’m still waiting for an apology. I got told they were helping me. That’s gaslighting.
I’ve forgiven but the reality of my life doesn’t let me forget and I shouldn’t dare less I remember the dangers of blindly following people. Its why I hear God.
It took me years to get outraged.
No more is my narrative controlled.
It wasn’t nice to take our home. How about we stop protecting the bullies and we won’t have shootings.
Oops did I say that? It was illegal for the church to lock me and my daughter both autistic out of our legally rented home. I paid my rent and had a 2 year clad iron lease, I should know I wrote the lease. It was A class b felony but the prosecutor didn’t care why.
I don’t know maybe cause they’re rich and I was an emotional autistic homeless person.
Why have laws you don’t enforce? Why don’t we save tax dollar and not pay legislators to write laws no one enforces.
If I had parents connected those pastor would be in jail.
Sorry im, not a liar
And I was told oh that couldn’t of happened. Really why not?
Cause I’m now v poor not rich? If I had my money and BMW you’d believe then I said.
1 Corinthians 9:9-10
For it is written in the Law of Moses, “YOU SHALL NOT MUZZLE THE OX WHILE HE IS THRESHING.” God is not concerned about oxen, is He? Or is He speaking altogether for our sake? Yes, for our sake it was written because the plowman ought to plow in hope, and the thresher to thresh in hope of sharing the crops.
So I get God will take you through and you’ll get your reward but God says we eat while work. Were suppose to have access to what we need not sometime off in la la land
He also says Hope deferred makes the heart sick. This is Proverbs
Proverbs 13 12
God says proverbs is wisdom where is the wisdom of the church?
The wisdom of the world and church are the same
I hate it
Its why my kids are mad at me.
Cause the church says we follow God and they do but God sat w the poor and are w them.
He didn’t create a food line.
Together in homes all across the world as one this is the church but were still putting on night clothes and concerts. Sorry, we are. It’s not wrong but it lacks the beatitudes oops
There’s an issue.
Do we need another stadium event?
Maybe if I sit in another conference opportunity will fall like fairy dust
No no no
This isn’t God
He is the God of miracles.
You want a miracle
Meet my daughter whos been ignored stepped around dismissed her whole life yet she still l9ves people?
This is a miracle. So here’s the truth
It may sound like oh she’s being negative but really it’s me talking about reality. I’m glad Rosa had the courage to say Hey I’m a person too! Her reality was negative but she spoke up because she believed the best the in people just like I do. I believe in a world w Jesus alive as a reality not a singles group or a teaching but a world where if you’re autistic your l9ved if you’re poor your loved if you’ve got all wrong your l9ved. If God is love how can the church be anything else?
If God is love can we change the definition of love? This is what the devil stole our definition of love.
Its time for us as the body of Christ to reclaim our Gods name and do better. This isnt  about a particular church, it’s about Gods worldwide church.
I am Linda Barnett and I am standing up. I will not sit in the back of my Gods bus anymore.

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